Hello my good sirs and ladies, I'm 26, majored in Anthropology, but working as a full time esthetician(which I enjoy very much). I love gaming(primarily mmo's), fashion, nature, beauty and passionate people.
I mainly play Aion.You can usually find me on Shaar(lvl65 gunner) or Scya(lvl 63 ranger), server Nexus(asmo side). Sometimes on: Sharthya(lvl 60 cleric). Apart from that, various other secondary toons.
To whom it may concern,
On the 27th of this month, September, I decided to quit Aion. And for good this time. 
After many times quitting and coming back to it after a longer or shorter amount of time, I had a moment of complete breakdown and lucidity in which I realized that, in order to set my life straight and get to do what I keep promising to myself for months, that I will do, in order to improve myself as an individual, I must quit Aion for good.
No other game has made me so addicted in all of my years playing games. I have not loved any other game so much, and it’s probably because I have played it for so long, with close friends in the beginning, and it gave me a rush that no other game till Aion, made me feel.
But I realized that, while playing like a maniac, I started neglecting more and more of other aspects of my life. I want to improve as a person, I want to grow, to learn new things, I’ve been planning for more than an year to learn a new language, to improve my skills and knowledge concerning my work field, in order to advanced my career, I planned to start practicing swimming again, I used to love swimming before I found Aion, and to start drawing again, used to love that too a lot and was quite good at it, but then I gave it up because I didn’t have enough time for both Aion and drawing. I just started playing hardcore, because this game makes me feel so competitive that I simply can’t stop, I need to be the best, I can’t settle for anything less. And I also realized that Aion stopped bringing me the joy that it used to give me in the very first year of playing, now it started to feel just like having a second job, feeling forced to log in and do JMR,instances,arenas,sieges, just so I could somewhat keep up with the rest. It felt exactly like a job, like something I MUST do, not out of fun, but out of necessity. I got angry 90% of the time playing, no longer happy or relaxed. But worst of all is that I started treating the people in my life badly, because I would see them as an obstacle for me to spend more time in Aion. When a game needs you to play for at least 8 hours a day just so that you can keep up with the rest, then you should stop and think what’s going on in your life, with your life. I work for 8-10 hours per day. When I get home it’s late and I must also cook and have dinner, or maybe eat out. Then I need time for myself to relax and pamper myself, you know, girl stuff I guess. Then there’s my boyfriend, friends, family,doggie, which I can not simply ignore, they are not a piece of furniture, they have feelings and needs too. And then when a game requires me to dedicate almost half of my day to it, there’s a problem.
And when a game makes you so obssesed that, when friends would invite me somewhere, I would pass down any invitation for anything really, going out for a drink, going to a BBQ, going camping, going travelling, visiting stuff,etc, it’s a problem. You no longer live your life, you no longer have a life, the game becomes your life. When you start ignoring your boyfriend/girlfriend and you always measure everything you do during the day, as time away from the game, time wasted because you didn’t get to play, that’s bad.
I realized that, if I want to do all the things I promised myself, in order to become a better person, to grow and EVOLVE as a person, I need to stop playing Aion, because I can’t play it casually,  either go hardcore or don’t play it at all. And it’s strange since Aion is the only game that made me this obsessed. None of all the other mmo’s or single players I played, never got my so hooked.
So I decided to take it easy with the whole gaming, I will probably move on to Archeage, and take it easy there, limiting my play time drastically, and just get to doing all of the things I wanted to do for so long and never “had the time” because there was always a siege,instance,quest,pvp,crafting,gathering to do.
So to my followers which are interested in Aion, I am sorry but I won’t post any more Aion stuff, so feel free to unfollow me if you’re not interested in all the other games that I post.
Thank you and have a good day.

To whom it may concern,

On the 27th of this month, September, I decided to quit Aion. And for good this time. 

After many times quitting and coming back to it after a longer or shorter amount of time, I had a moment of complete breakdown and lucidity in which I realized that, in order to set my life straight and get to do what I keep promising to myself for months, that I will do, in order to improve myself as an individual, I must quit Aion for good.

No other game has made me so addicted in all of my years playing games. I have not loved any other game so much, and it’s probably because I have played it for so long, with close friends in the beginning, and it gave me a rush that no other game till Aion, made me feel.

But I realized that, while playing like a maniac, I started neglecting more and more of other aspects of my life. I want to improve as a person, I want to grow, to learn new things, I’ve been planning for more than an year to learn a new language, to improve my skills and knowledge concerning my work field, in order to advanced my career, I planned to start practicing swimming again, I used to love swimming before I found Aion, and to start drawing again, used to love that too a lot and was quite good at it, but then I gave it up because I didn’t have enough time for both Aion and drawing. I just started playing hardcore, because this game makes me feel so competitive that I simply can’t stop, I need to be the best, I can’t settle for anything less. And I also realized that Aion stopped bringing me the joy that it used to give me in the very first year of playing, now it started to feel just like having a second job, feeling forced to log in and do JMR,instances,arenas,sieges, just so I could somewhat keep up with the rest. It felt exactly like a job, like something I MUST do, not out of fun, but out of necessity. I got angry 90% of the time playing, no longer happy or relaxed. But worst of all is that I started treating the people in my life badly, because I would see them as an obstacle for me to spend more time in Aion. When a game needs you to play for at least 8 hours a day just so that you can keep up with the rest, then you should stop and think what’s going on in your life, with your life. I work for 8-10 hours per day. When I get home it’s late and I must also cook and have dinner, or maybe eat out. Then I need time for myself to relax and pamper myself, you know, girl stuff I guess. Then there’s my boyfriend, friends, family,doggie, which I can not simply ignore, they are not a piece of furniture, they have feelings and needs too. And then when a game requires me to dedicate almost half of my day to it, there’s a problem.

And when a game makes you so obssesed that, when friends would invite me somewhere, I would pass down any invitation for anything really, going out for a drink, going to a BBQ, going camping, going travelling, visiting stuff,etc, it’s a problem. You no longer live your life, you no longer have a life, the game becomes your life. When you start ignoring your boyfriend/girlfriend and you always measure everything you do during the day, as time away from the game, time wasted because you didn’t get to play, that’s bad.

I realized that, if I want to do all the things I promised myself, in order to become a better person, to grow and EVOLVE as a person, I need to stop playing Aion, because I can’t play it casually,  either go hardcore or don’t play it at all. And it’s strange since Aion is the only game that made me this obsessed. None of all the other mmo’s or single players I played, never got my so hooked.

So I decided to take it easy with the whole gaming, I will probably move on to Archeage, and take it easy there, limiting my play time drastically, and just get to doing all of the things I wanted to do for so long and never “had the time” because there was always a siege,instance,quest,pvp,crafting,gathering to do.

So to my followers which are interested in Aion, I am sorry but I won’t post any more Aion stuff, so feel free to unfollow me if you’re not interested in all the other games that I post.

Thank you and have a good day.

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